Insanity or Brilliance?

Wow, it's been awhile since I've had the time to actually sit down and write a blog post. It's been awhile since I've had the time to do much of anything, actually. My time may become even more scarce, though. I've either had a stroke of brilliance, or I'm suffering from insanity.

I'm working on starting my own business. Right now, all I have is an idea, and the hope for a future, but I know there's a market out there for what I want to do,, and I hope that it all falls in line with everything else that I want to do with my life. How in the world I'm going to balance this and training to be a dance instructor, I don't know. Hell, how I'm going to do this with no business knowledge at all, I have no clue. All I can do is hope for the best, and hope that I can do everything I need to do...

The Creative Mind

Recently, I realized I have a bit of a problem. My mind is always working and it never stops. It makes focusing on a single project very difficult. I've been trying to find a way to finish my novels and yet... there are too many things that call me away from them. Well, it's time to buckle down and finish something else. It has to happen, otherwise, I'm going to lose my mind.

Here's a quick outline of next week and how I plan on using it to complete another novel before the end of July so I can actually get it published.

• June 15: Cleaning, character development, locating old manuscripts that could use some polishing.
• June 16: Hanging out with the boyfriend and getting him to read an old manuscript if he's willing.
• June 17: Dance, writing 2000 words.
• June 18: Writing, cleaning, filming this week's main YouTube video.
• June 19: Calm before the storm. Time to practice for dance.
• June 20: Writing, cleaning, cooking, dance in the evening.
• June 21: Volunteering in the morning/early afternoon, writing/reading in the park, dance.
• June 22: Calm day, cleaning, maybe hanging out with the boyfriend.
• June 23: Monster's University, writing (hopefully), and practice time.

I don't think I have any time to breath, but that's alright. I'll manage.

And the Madness Begins.

Days until Camp NaNoWriMo: 18

Keep with me, because I'm about to talk to you about everything that's coming up over the next year.

So, it's official. I'm doing the April session of Camp NaNoWriMo. Originally, I was going to write the sequel to Faery Mists, Moon Struck, but now I think I'm going to write a different novel. We'll see what happens.

I'm also considering making a documentary, but that will take a lot more time and planning than writing a novel, especially considering I want to do a documentary about women on YouTube. I know for a fact that I've got a movie in the works, so yeah. I'm losing my mind slowly. A friend and I are working on the script currently, then we'll be moving on in the production of it. We're doing it all ourselves.

On my YouTube channel, I'm going to be producing some more music (yay?) and doing some new short films/skits. We'll see how all that goes. I know that next week, I get to finally put up my Slenderman video. It's been a long time coming and it's almost finished, finally.

Goldfish-ism

Warning: This blog post will be incredibly random. Proceed at your own risk.

Do you ever just have moments where nothing can make you focus? No matter how hard you try, you're always getting distracted? Yeah, me too. In fact, I sat down to write this post and immediately needed to clean my phone case.

Today, I feel like a goldfish. I managed to sit still and focus all through rehearsal this afternoon, but once I was home, I couldn't focus on anything to save my life.

Here's a random picture of a frog in a hole that I took last summer. Speaking of frogs, I once wanted to write a twist on the Frog Prince. I should probably get started on that eventually. Maybe after something sweet to eat, not that I need sugar in this state.

Sugar... Alright, dessert tortilla as soon as I finish writing this post... Or maybe after this sentence. I can't decide.

All in all, tonight, I am a goldfish.

2012

Well, it's been 2013 for a week, officially, and I'm not quite sure how to feel about the whole matter.  It's different.  Already, so much has changed for me this year.  I'm alright with all that, though.  I'm finally finishing up my novel.  I've had to add a couple of scenes and writing them is emotionally draining, but so worth it.

Last year saw the start of many things for me.  It saw me start blogging and vlogging.  It was the beginning of several amazing friendships and the loss of some that I wish hadn't had to end.  It saw me gain a bit of independence, and this year will see me fighting to maintain it.  Last year was an amazing year and I can only hope this year will be just as great.

Solitude (Growing Up)

It's an strange thing, being away from your parents. It's also a fact of life that you have to grow up and leave the safe and caring environment that your parents are supposed to have provided for you. The even stranger part is realizing that you're taking care or yourself for the first time. It's up to you to put the food on the table, wash your clothes, do the chores...

At first, it can be daunting. I know some people who left home and found themselves at a loss for what they were supposed to do. Without someone to guide them, they made some stupid mistakes. I know others who embraced the freedom and solitude, finding it easier to deal with the occasional oppressing loneliness that threatens.

I've found myself wondering how to fill my days more and more lately. While I am an adult, I've never been so far from my parents. I know that I'll miss them, but they have many adventures ahead of them. As for me, this is only the first step on a journey of a lifetime.